.:.:SasuNaru:.:.:Sounds of Sweetness:.:. Cht. 11

                             Chapter Eleven
                              All I Wanted.
                      Dear Naruto,
  If you're reading this now, I might not be around anymore. I'm sorry to leave you on such short notice. I want you to know that I never wanted to leave you and Ryu. I love you both very much. I promise that I will always be close by, even if I have passed.
  Do you remember when we trained day and night together? We had to escort that one man to the Mist and Kakashi taught us something new. That night when we both reached the top of the trees, I loved that moment. It was just me and you; as if we were the only ones in the entire universe. I wish I could say that was the best moment in my life, but it would be a flat out lie.
  My most cherished memory would have to be the moment I first set eyes on you. The oceans in your eyes were the most calming and beautiful things I'd ever seen. I wanted to hide you away so no one could ever hurt you, or take you away from me.
  Please, don't hate Itachi for killing me. Everyone has a reason for what they do, even the black hearted have reasons. I forgive him. I know it might not make sense to you know, but soon you will. He's my brother and whether I like it or not, nothing can change it. Blood and air bind us together just as fate and the world brought you and me together.
  I love you dope, so don't cry for too long. Your smile is you're mightiest weapon. I love you. I love Ryu. I love Kakashi. I love Sakura. I love you… I love Naruto Uzumaki.

  Tear drops blurred the inked paper. Hands shook with broken hearted wounds. It was unbearable to see such a loving boy cry over words on a paper. It could make a grown man fall to his knees; cause the world to go dark. That is how sorrowful the moment was.

                      Dear Kakashi,
  I'm sorry you have to lose me more than once. I would never wish such pain onto you, my father. You have always been there for me when I needed you and even when I didn't. That's what true parenting is, caring for the younger one.
  I learned that after Naruto and myself got little Ryu. I have no clue what life would be like if you hadn't been there for me. I might have left to be with Orochimaru, then after killing him I would have joined the Akatsuki. Luckily that didn't happen.
  Thank you for being the father I never had. It really saved my life from a darkness that could have kept me from being with Naruto. Please, take care of our wild child and keep a close eye on Ryu while he grows up. Don't let him eat too much ramen.
  Can I ask you to do me one other favor, please have me and Itachi buried next to each other. It might sound crazy, but I still love my brother. He means a lot to me, and I can't hate him all my life, even after death. He did so much for me when I was younger. I hope you understand.
  I love you Kakashi. I love you like I love watching the sun set in the summer. Corny, I know but I have to tell you since I'm dancing on the moon now. I love you… Father.
  Memories, good and bad, filled his head as well as his heart. Tears walked in slow motion down his cheeks. He ached everywhere and nowhere. His son, the son he raised from the moment he was put on his team was now gone. He was an angel in the stars.

                      Sakura,
  Please don't cry, not forever. It would be painful to watch over you with a tear stained face. Remember, I love you. You reminded me of a sister, one that I would protect from heart break and sorrow. I guess I failed, but I don't apologize.
  You're strong, and you are brave. You can become the greatest ninja ever, I believe you can. You better keep your promise about helping raise Ryu. If Naruto did it all by himself, there would be double trouble as well as no ramen for anyone else who would like a bowl.
  I am sorry, that I left on such short notice. I was only trying to protect my family, as well as rebuild my old one. I'm going to miss your bright smile, as well as your cheerful laugh. It always seemed to make my day better. Don't tell Naru, he might get jealous.
  You mean a lot to me, and I'm glad that you were my friend in the end. You really saved me, physically and emotionally. I couldn't have made it a few times without you. Thank Tsunade for me, please?
  I love you Sakura-chan. You are special to me, and you are perfect they way you are. Don't let Ino or anyone change your mind about yourself. I will come back and haunt you if you even think about changing. I love you.

  Pink hair covered pain filled eyes. Her sobs were filled with so much emotion and so much anguish; it would have broken someone's heart. Her emerald eyes grew red from all the tears falling, crumbling to the letter she held with a tight grasp.
                   
                      My Little Ryu,
  By the time you read this, time will have passed and you might forget me. Even so, I wanted to tell you just how much I love you. I wish for nothing more than for you to grow up a good childhood. Don't let anyone get you down, don't you ever let them get to you.
  I'm sorry that I wasn't there to watch you grow up. I wanted to teach you so much; I wanted to read bed time stories to you every night until you got too old for it. I wish I could hold you and tell you there was nothing to be afraid of. I would have taught you how to make a paper crane, and tell you that if you could make a thousand of them, you could make a wish.
  I wanted to see you smile, just once I wanted to hear you call me dad. I wish you could meet my older brother, Itachi. I wish I could tell you everything about my fathers and my mother. You would love them, or at least I hope you would.
  You will grow up to become a strong warrior; you will learn that you should treat everyone with a kind heart, that you should be kind to women and your elders. You will become a perfect man, with the only flaw of not knowing what your old man was like.
  I'm sorry that I couldn't be there for you; I really wish I could have been. Because I do love you and I love your father. You both mean so much to me. Even if life started all over again, I wouldn't change a thing about what I did. I am proud of you, no matter what. You can always believe that I am with you, close by and near your heart.
 
  A sad smile spread across his face slowly, glad that Ryu would never have to read this. It would have broken his heart, as well as crushed him to know that his father died before he could have ever met him.
  In some small way, he was happy. Ryu would have either never met his father, not giving him a chance to feel the pain he had, or he would have grown up with him and found a aching crack in his chest that grew after he passed. Sasuke never wanted his son to feel that pain. Thank god, he never would.
  Sasuke had survived, as well as made it home with minimum damage done to him. A few cuts and bruises was all he got. He couldn't have been more thankful in his life for this gift he had been given. The gift to be with his family; all of his family forever until age caught up with him.
*~~~*~~~*~~~*Flack Back*~~~*~~~*~~~*
  Blood dripped from the cut Itachi had made across his face. It hurt like hell, but it was bearable. "Itachi, please!" He pleaded. "Kisame was my lover and you killed him!" Rage filled Itachi's voice while tears raced down his cheeks.
  He had no clue what to say, because he was just about to kill his own brother for attempting to kill Naruto and his family. He understood where Itachi was coming from.
  "I can't say I'm sorry for killing him, because I did it for the sake of my family. I can say I'm sorry that I killed someone you love." I relaxed my body from being in a tense defense pose. "He must have wanted to make you happy, and when he heard I was alive, he didn't want you to become stressed." Sasuke connected piece by piece.
  Itachi let out a painful laugh. "That would be something he would do." He seemed lost in memories. Sasuke patiently waited for what would happen next. "I can't say I'm not angry with you, Brother, but I can't kill you." Itachi dropped his weapon.
  As he turned to leave, Sasuke reached out to him. "Brother, you once said that you'd always be there for me." Itachi stopped. "You missed a lot, but you shouldn't have to go back to the Akatsuki. Come and be there for your nephew." Sasuke paused, allowing the words to take some time.
  When Itachi said nothing, He decided to continue. "Blood and air is what keeps us connected. I would like for Ryu to know his uncle, and I would like to live the rest of my life with my big brother." Itachi never turned.
  He remained still for a long while, but soon he continued walking away. It hurt Sasuke to watch as he left for the second time, but he could understand better now than he could back then.
*~~~*~~~*~~~*Flash Back End*~~~*~~~*~~~*  
  Although that was only months ago, Sasuke couldn't believe his eyes when Itachi showed up only a week ago. Of course his brother has his own place now, but he stayed a few days and met the angel now sleeping in Naruto's arms.
  "Sasuke, I'm going to put this guy to bed." He whispered up to his lover. Sasuke nodded and watched as the blonde walked down the hall. He was so thankful to be alive right now.
He could watch Ryu grow up, fall in love, get his heart broken by a girl, get married to someone, become the next Hokage, then die peacefully. He would be with Naruto and his own brother. He could have Kakashi by his side as well as Sakura.
  Sasuke would live a long happy life with his friends and family, and he could be happy with the simple fact that he wasn't alone any more. He could live to see another day like everyone else. He had found the most impossible thing ever and it was everything he wanted.